PTSD in me

he said.


he said that i talk too much
he said that i don't do anything right
he said that i'm a slut
he said that i'm an idiot
he said that i'm dumb
he said that my art is lame
he said that feminism is irrelevant
he said that i'm "one of those girls"
he said that i'm acting like a victim
he said that i had it coming
he said that it wouldn't have happened had i not been sans bra
he said "maybe if your nipples weren't showing"
he said that "we all say inappropriate things"
he said that i was making it up
he said that i was choosing to see it that way
he said that it was just my ego
he said that i wasn't good enough
he said that i'll never be good enough
he said that i'm shaming him for letting him know that i'm offended
he said that i'm trying to control him
he said that i expect too much out of him
he said that if i had sex with him that i'd be doing my patriotic duty of supporting the troops
he said that he could tell that i wasn't into it
he said that i was tight
he said that my pussy was wet
he said that he wanted to fuck me hard
he said that he was gonna cum on my titties
he said that i don't talk in a way that's worth listening to
he said that i don't possess intelligence--like he does
he said that it's my stress, and that the reality i'm seeing is invalid
he said that playing with my hair means i'm flirting
he said all men think about sex all of the time
he said "look at her ass"
he said that my ass is super sexy
he said that he'd like to start a future with me
he said that i cry too much
he said that i should have that abortion
he said that he was relieved when i did
he said that it was my choice when it wasn't
he said that i struggle for power
he said that i don't understand
he said that i needed to stick up for myself--that i let it happen
he said that i was a bitch
he said that bending over like that was me seeking attention
he said that i take things "too personally"
he said that i'm "too sensitive"
he said that i'm "too politically correct"
he said that i had "itty titties"
he said that i had "thunder thighs"
he said that i had a "j-lo booty"
he said that i should have long finger nails
he said that i should wear pink
he said that i should lick it
he said that i live in the past
he said that it's not as bad as i think